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Other Side…

Hollow echos where my soul once felt…

Echos of a cold and slowing beat where my hear once was…

I think that I’m done…

I’m tired to the bone…

Nowhere to hide…

With this feeling inside…

Who will be by my side???…

When it comes to that time???…

Hope to see your face…

When your time comes…

On the other side …alonewater

Pix…Google…

Things that go bump in the night!!!…

So as most of you know I am not a good sleeper and a light sleeper at that…

So I finally started to fall asleep around 12 ish…

I wake to someone yelling…I sat up in bed and from where my room is to where dad sleeps (the couch) all I could see were legs kicking and yelling so I jumped up outta bed and the couch has a full length table behind it …that is where I was standing while trying to get dad to wake up…I kept yelling dad …dad you are having a nightmare and more trying to wake him without any luck…as I start to run over to the front of the couch where I could reach him but not close since he has been jumpy all his life and you can be in the same room with him and walk up behind him and it scares the shitt outta him every time…so I already knew to watch my distance… but before I could even move he moves to his right and falls head first into the hard floor…even after the hard hit to the forehead and I got to him it took him a few seconds to wake up… so he did wake up finally and I made him stay sitting up on the floor for a bit before getting him up off the floor onto the couch again… I asked him how he felt and as I am doing this looking over his head since I seen it hit the hard floor first dead weight…I said omg dad while looking at his head is a small egg-shaped forming … I bring him into the kitchen where its brighter and again looked him over…by this time with me screaming when I seen him fall over off the couch my better half wakes up and helps … I started the coffffeeeee and got the ice pack for his head and kept talking to him…he was coherent and alert all that good stuff but I wasn’t going to let him go back to sleep not with a head injury and he wanted some coffeeee and before anyone states anything I know that you are not supposed to give anything by mouth and all that but again so far so good lol…so I did give him a half a cup of coffeeee to start and I made him stay up and talk for a few hours…he said he was tired and this being 3 hours since his fall so I told him to lay in his chair and that I would be waking him every 30 minutes or so to check him but he wanted me to go back to bed…no…NOPE I was to worried about him I told him I would stay up!!!… he started to get a headache so I gave him one of his pain pills…now he wants to rest in his chair so I help him to it and he has his blankets and ice pack while we are still talking I was just sitting at the kitchen table…and I checked on him every 30 minutes… I believe that this egg has grown lol…it looks like he has two eggs on the side of his forehead close to the temple area…I mean this fucker is pretty big…since he just got up about an hour ago he is doing fine but keeping my eyes on him…so this is how the new month has started off for us…this should be fun!!!…

I also started a major Lupus and Fibro flare the 1st of October and it seems to me that it is not going to back down…I have been up since 2am in pain worried about dad and hurt like a mother fucker Oh and…and…we only had a small group of 3 Bratts I mean kids show up here…I mean we were the only ones with our lights on…wtf!!!…I guess the tradition is leaving…???…

Did you all have a lot of kids show up???…Did you take your kids door to door???…

I would have taken a picture of dads swollen egged head but he is embarrassed about this …maybe later heheeh…

October 7th…Moon vs Sun…

20171007_071707.jpgEarly morning …moon still out…

 

20171007_071655.jpgMoon still out and here comes the sun…

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Aww pretty clouds rolling in as the sun starts the day…20171007_071516.jpgGotta love early country mornings…

I wanted to post this on the same day but …well you know how life gets…so enjoy the moon and the sun…

Texas…Rain…

Since here in HOTT AZZ Texas everyone may have been seeing that we have been getting so much rain..Getting hit very hard with this rain and more rain and did I mention RAIN!!!??? and some areas are or have been flooding some people have lost everything my heart goes out to those people it really does…It would break my heart to have ruin pictures things like that…

The last two years it has been this way rain, rain and more rain and flooding at this time of year so I thought since I have rain on my brain I would play some of my tunes that has …Yup you guessed it rain in them…

The first one is my man Tiesto it’s an older song but I seem to like it better than the newer musik he has been putting out…… ANYWAYS IT’S GOOD MUSIK AND YOU NEED A BREAK ANYWAYS..SO JUST DO DUE IT!!!LOL

Side note..It has not rained as of yet today so that is the good side of things..I wanted to add more videos but nope can’t do that so these are the two for now…Hope you enjoy : )

If it rains and we were together I will always share my umbrella (Well if I could find it)lol but I love the rain so I would probably just give you the umbrella ….Have a wonderful day and let it rain down on you…

 

Here is Eurythmics so much talent as a group or on her own…

Plunge Me In…

Plunge me in the river Jordan….

Baptize , Submerge me in the depths of all its faiths …That has been before me…

All love…No hate…

Lets get out of this ill state…We are all in…

Lift me up cleanse me from the filth …Lift me out of the hate of our worlds fate…

Take my clothes off my back…Take all my belongings…

Take what you need from me..take it all…burn it…

Nothing left to hide…Nothing left to bare …And I don’t fucking care…

Fire intensifies …Hair on my arms are burning …

You took everything even the ones I had on…

You pushed me…Into the flames…

It’s just me…My soul…

Close your eyes …Tell me what you see…

Touch my body…What do you feel…

Touch my chest…Do you feel it beating?…

Like a Phoenix rises from its ashes…

I rise again…

 

 

 

*Picture from Google….

 

 

 

Die Devil Die…

Just as you plan your day and feel ok all hell breaks loose as I fall to your bed and crumble in a ball your brain overloaded…. sensors going off as I just want to jump off….Don’t get to close to the edge…. I just might… .take a leap a leap of faith maybe today maybe tomorrow all of this sorrow all this pain will fade away as I pray to take it away…As I sit and wait to get on the sea saw of life it all starts again….. like Satan with an evil grin ..I return while you are awake I return as you try to sleep with evil laughter he states I won’t give you breaks only give you possibility of more than you can take… again evil nights evil days same time same place…. I am here to take the place…. of once was your happiness the things you once enjoyed to only remind you of what once was could never be… I am a prisoner of this disease….. I look in the mirror and to the horror it’s ME with the evil grin and red eyes …awake or in dream land and can’t escape… what is real what is fake…. this pain is present for Gods sake…. I drop to my knees with nothing left I am done… don’t want to go on…. where did I put the fucking gun…while my head spins sweat pours down me I can’t take this where is the door… I want to run… I want to hide… why don’t I just die… Evilness of this disease why me..should I had even asked….the evil grin and red eyes are back I feel it… it hurts all over ..there is a monster inside of me..it’s Satan… or so I thought……. It’s just me and my pain of this disease …same time same place ..please take me to that happy place…if only for 5 minutes or 10 I will take what relief I can…..I guess that I will just put on that fake azz smile once again…another day another night….a prisoner trapped in my own self a self I have grown to hate……..

I want to thank my Dear friend https://sheldonkleemanartworks.com/

Please check out his amazing work at the above link….He is the reason, inspiration behind this blog post..Without you Mr Sheldon this blog post would not had happened …Thank you from the bottom of my heart…

Suzette