Category Archives: Life

A fate unknown???…

He’s taking his chances…

Out on a limb…

Taken nothing with him…

But his despair n guitar …

Not knowing his fate or how far…

The burden he carries …

The stress n worries…

With tears in his eyes…

He walked away with only a faint goodbye… traintracks

 

Picture…Google…

Fighting another day!!!…

I hate these kind of days…

I just feel the pain and haze…

Is it all worth it???…to fight for another day???…

I am just so tired of the fight to get up …the pain when even laying down…no comfort zone near…

Do you hear me???…do you understand me???…

We are on the same team … the same side… fighting a fight of time…fighting a fight where most often we all always look fine… while your body insides are dying off…

No cure in sight …

Just take another pill…but the side effects may kill…

Is your fate sealed like a kiss from a poison widow???…I guess we all have a date with death its in our will…it is our destination …it is where we are going …where we are all headed…

No matter how much we fight we have to wonder if there is really light at the end of the tunnel…

Heaven …yes I believe…

Hell… yes I believe…

I don’t want to fathom the thought of hell…maybe here being on earth is the hell that is spoken of???…

Only God can tell…

I am tired…tired of many things …

But loving all of you on here is not one of them…

Mother Nature…

Let your rain pour all over me…

as I let her soak into my every pore…

drench me in every ounce of…you…

wash away my tears…tears of yesterday and tears of today…

wash it…take it…all away…

quench my thirst of just being one with…

laying on the saturated grass barefooted and all…

laying as mother nature does her thing…

covet me…

engulfing me…feelings…ignite my senses …electrifying my nerves…

I WANT MORE…

my mind…my body…my spirit…my soul…my all… has been touched

JUST LET ME SOAK IT UP…

you can feel deep within… softness like a rose…piercing like needles…

quite enough as she speaks to you…all who wants to listen…

pay attention…

feel her sensation of just being…

once you lay with her…let her rain on you…

you will never be the same…a change that can’t and never will be explained …

just experience it…

you will look forward…to her…

Mother Nature Rain…

Texas…Rain…

Since here in HOTT AZZ Texas everyone may have been seeing that we have been getting so much rain..Getting hit very hard with this rain and more rain and did I mention RAIN!!!??? and some areas are or have been flooding some people have lost everything my heart goes out to those people it really does…It would break my heart to have ruin pictures things like that…

The last two years it has been this way rain, rain and more rain and flooding at this time of year so I thought since I have rain on my brain I would play some of my tunes that has …Yup you guessed it rain in them…

The first one is my man Tiesto it’s an older song but I seem to like it better than the newer musik he has been putting out…… ANYWAYS IT’S GOOD MUSIK AND YOU NEED A BREAK ANYWAYS..SO JUST DO DUE IT!!!LOL

Side note..It has not rained as of yet today so that is the good side of things..I wanted to add more videos but nope can’t do that so these are the two for now…Hope you enjoy : )

If it rains and we were together I will always share my umbrella (Well if I could find it)lol but I love the rain so I would probably just give you the umbrella ….Have a wonderful day and let it rain down on you…

 

Here is Eurythmics so much talent as a group or on her own…

Plunge Me In…

Plunge me in the river Jordan….

Baptize , Submerge me in the depths of all its faiths …That has been before me…

All love…No hate…

Lets get out of this ill state…We are all in…

Lift me up cleanse me from the filth …Lift me out of the hate of our worlds fate…

Take my clothes off my back…Take all my belongings…

Take what you need from me..take it all…burn it…

Nothing left to hide…Nothing left to bare …And I don’t fucking care…

Fire intensifies …Hair on my arms are burning …

You took everything even the ones I had on…

You pushed me…Into the flames…

It’s just me…My soul…

Close your eyes …Tell me what you see…

Touch my body…What do you feel…

Touch my chest…Do you feel it beating?…

Like a Phoenix rises from its ashes…

I rise again…

 

 

 

*Picture from Google….

 

 

 

Die Devil Die…

Just as you plan your day and feel ok all hell breaks loose as I fall to your bed and crumble in a ball your brain overloaded…. sensors going off as I just want to jump off….Don’t get to close to the edge…. I just might… .take a leap a leap of faith maybe today maybe tomorrow all of this sorrow all this pain will fade away as I pray to take it away…As I sit and wait to get on the sea saw of life it all starts again….. like Satan with an evil grin ..I return while you are awake I return as you try to sleep with evil laughter he states I won’t give you breaks only give you possibility of more than you can take… again evil nights evil days same time same place…. I am here to take the place…. of once was your happiness the things you once enjoyed to only remind you of what once was could never be… I am a prisoner of this disease….. I look in the mirror and to the horror it’s ME with the evil grin and red eyes …awake or in dream land and can’t escape… what is real what is fake…. this pain is present for Gods sake…. I drop to my knees with nothing left I am done… don’t want to go on…. where did I put the fucking gun…while my head spins sweat pours down me I can’t take this where is the door… I want to run… I want to hide… why don’t I just die… Evilness of this disease why me..should I had even asked….the evil grin and red eyes are back I feel it… it hurts all over ..there is a monster inside of me..it’s Satan… or so I thought……. It’s just me and my pain of this disease …same time same place ..please take me to that happy place…if only for 5 minutes or 10 I will take what relief I can…..I guess that I will just put on that fake azz smile once again…another day another night….a prisoner trapped in my own self a self I have grown to hate……..

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Please check out his amazing work at the above link….He is the reason, inspiration behind this blog post..Without you Mr Sheldon this blog post would not had happened …Thank you from the bottom of my heart…

Suzette